What I've Learnt About Myself in 2016

2016 has been a very strange year. There has been a lot of highs and lows not just for me but in the world. So many amazing people were lost, some very questionable decisions made, I've travelled across the country to some places that I've liked and some that were just nice for the one and only visit and Brexit happened enough said really...

If I'm honest I've kinda felt like I've been in a boxing ring for most of the year, dodging the punches and ducking and diving under the negativity but even now at the end of a very eventful year I'm not sure if I stand here as the victor or the defeated.

There is one thing for sure, I have learnt a heck of a lot about myself this year some of which I never really wanted to admit but if I want to make my 2017 a better one I need to start listening to all the inspiration and start with some self-reflection.
The other day I came across Jade Variel on Youtube and just on first glance you can tell she is a girl who has her s**t together. She's got the house, a job and she is stunning! All at the age of 23! In an instance, I knew she was just the inspiration I needed for a new year! These past couple of weeks I've been lacking in motivation and didn't really know where I was going or what I was doing. It's amazing what happens when you find someone who just sparks a light within you and know all I want to do is prepare for what I hope will be a great 2017 but before I can do that, I need to address the elephant in the room as it were and tell myself a few home truths....

I'm very much a talker rather than a doer: If you ever hear me in a conservation I can tell you my hopes and what I want out of life but if you ask me how I'm going to acheive them and I'm quiet. For example, I've been saying for years that I never want to rent a place but I want to buy somewhere but have I worked out a plan on how I'm going to save for said house? Not really!
I want 2017 to be the year I come up with a plan, to sort out my finances properly and pay off all my debts and finally work towards the house I've always wanted. It's not just saving either but want to try and implement this into other aspects of my life too e.g. my blog.

I bit off more than I can chew: I suppose this one links in with the one above but I'm really good at seeing the bigger picture or the end result but I haven't put the stepping stones in place to get there. I now know that for me writing it all down helps me whether it be a daily to-do list or a paragraph in my budgeting book, seeing it on paper helps me to visualise that it's possible.

I need to look after me: Part of feeling good and confident is to look good and I know that when I'm not at my best, it has a huge effect on my motivation and how I see things. I need to take a bit more pride in my appearance, have that bath if I want it, heck light all the candles in the house if it can make me feel better. I need to start knowing that it's okay to look after me sometimes...

My life isn't perfect flatlays and Instagram filters:  Don't get me wrong, I love a good Instagram feed like the next person but not getting the perfect flatlay isn't the end of the world. I want to enjoy my photography and not really pressure to post on Instagram if I have nothing to post.

If I think it, I can achieve it: I hate to admit it but I do doubt myself and my abilities quite a lot. I suppose sometimes it's because I have so much on my mind that I never know where to start so when I come to start something I doubt myself and just give up. 2017 is the year I start believing in myself and go with my gut - who knows, I may get somewhere.

Stop comparing my journey to others: I'd be telling a lie if I said I didn't compare myself to other bloggers and youtubers. It's the classic why isn't my blog getting as many views? I've posted the same video as this person yet I have all these dislikes? Why did I only get 11 likes on this photo on Instagram? Believe me, there have been days when I've wanted to just delete my social media and just disappear because I will never be as good as this person and regrettably I've done the same in my everyday life, comparing my hair, my skin, my makeup skills, my levels of confidence etc to others. I'm going to spend my 2017 working on my journey and getting it right for me, I'll probably never stop comparing myself as that is easier said than done but I will definitely try to do it less.

Messy space = messy mind: Confession time, I'm a messy person! There I've said it, it's out on the internet for the world to see! I don't know why I've tried to kid myself all these years that my mess is organised and just because I know where everything is, it can't possibly be messy. Nope! It's not the case and it's time for me to confront my messy habits. There is no truer statement than a messy space equals a messy mind state, it was proven to me the other day when I tidied my hotel room after weeks of saying it and I've seen my productivity levels go through the roof! Everything has a place and I feel ten times more relaxed than I was. Whilst you're reading this I'm sending my New Years Day having a major clear out of my room. There are black bin bags involved and everything! 

I want 2017 to be a clean slate. I would like a year where my mind, body and self are happy and content and if I can fit it the occasional gym session then that's a bonus too.

What did 2016 teach you?

Dionne x


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